my feet, where are they? i need to find them again.

and another week passes by. i'm like living in a state of suspension. i constantly remind myself that my life is in suspension. that this 2 years is not actually part of me. that it contributes almost nothing to my growth or anything. yawn, i'm so tired. at least there's still driving to look forward to.

i respect Goh Chok Tong. cannot say the same for his wife though. won't do any name-calling or i won'te done by tonight. let me quote. "Why make a fuss of it? For a person who runs a million-dollar charitable organisation, $600,000 is peanuts as it has a few hundred millions in reserves." ok, so having enough money is an acceptable reason to waste resources. and then it is ok to take money meant for patients with kidney problems and put it into the pockets of a freeloader. and the conclusion i draw from the statements is that there is no need to donate anymore, people. a $10 donation is peanuts to NKF. no need, save it for better use. or donate it to the KDF. there is more than one organisation helping kidney patients in Singapore. do not throw money away. and as a footnote, i respect those people who graffitied on the headquarters. always wished i could do something like that.

hmm haven't been writing in. it's only because everything i do seems totally pointless these days. my life seems incomplete. there are just so many holes to plug, gaps to fill. damn. and this i'm writing, it's just for the sake. for having in word in white and black that this is probably hhthe lowest point of my life.

spent a full day out today. went earlyto church today to help out with the youth month thing we're having on. and now i know i make a terrible salesman. totally tak boleh. then after service continued with that. had lunch with parents, then went to meet with og ppl from long ago. haha, not exactly long ago but still it's like eons since we met up. it was quite nice and all. i mean we used to have such crazy times. oolala. and i just figured out how much i suck. like everyone is getting into medicine like nobody's business. but then again, i know like so many straight As that didn't get in. this is a strange world, damn. and yes, i really want to be a doctor. so God willing, i will. it's never the end of the world eh?